It’s been nearly a year since I’ve been able to place any emotion into word. They stick in my spirit, lodge in my brain and sometimes look like tears. As I process my progress, I’ve come to appreciate the new me. Falling in love with who I am now has been so hard. I look to the scar on my neck from a diagnosis of Normocalcemic Primary Hyperparathyroidism and thyroid cancer and wonder at all my body has been through. This time seven weeks ago, I was laying in an ICU bed with a central line across my neck. “Slow and steady wins the race.” That’s what my two favorite nurses reminded me. It has become my mantra.
Since then, I’ve eased back into my world and moved through each day with as much energy on healing for the future and being well in the present. Learning to embrace who I am now can’t be defined by my past expectations or anyone anyone else’s. Maybe I write this to more than myself. Let today be the day you fall in love with who you are now. You are a beautiful child of God and He loves you so.